When I was having harsh experiences happen one after the other, I didn’t know at the time that there was a purpose in it.
I just thought I was going beyond ‘unlucky’ to ‘this is bizarre.'
It seems to me, for some of us sensitive people, that we are learning bigger and deeper lessons than other people.
I knew acquaintances in the San Francisco area who seemed to have it all: money, looks, the ability to travel, health and apparent happiness.
As I struggled to have any one of those topics.
I now believe that I (and maybe you?) are being given the opportunity to look at life in a different way.
In a Higher way – an energetic way – that is instructing us to feel the FEELINGS we want to have BEFORE we have the things, events or conditions show up.
Versus WHEN I have (this thing) THEN I’ll feel (relaxed, happy, etc.)
My current goal is to own a house again. I gave up my house in my divorce so I could have other benefits - AND add in the fact that I traveled so much as a kid I never did have a ‘home base.'
So, I’ve been exploring the FEELINGS that I perceive a new home would give me.
(Notice that I’ve switched from the word ‘house’ to ‘home’?)
My husband and I are renting a house until we figure out where exactly we want to end up. Currently Central Oregon has way more snow than I was prepared for.
And it’s a long winter.
Given that, I figure it’s the perfect time to get clear about what I want to FEEL when I have this home.
Number one on my list is the feeling of being AT home, not just in a house but in my skin.
And, also a sense of safety and security.
Clearly, as I’ve owned a house before and now realize I DIDN’T have feelings of safety or security when I lived there, there must be more to it than that.
So, what WOULD give me a sense of HOME BASE?
(And you? What would give YOU a sense of feeling at home, in this life? I'm curious.)
I realized I HAD that sense when I had my out-of-body experience years ago - just BEING in our eternal, Loving energetic state.
Is it possible for me to feel this inherent state despite not owning a house?
And while IN a body?
Well sure it is, because I've done this exercise with other topics and achieved good health, great relationships and I do what I love for a living.
Have I done what it takes to have the feeling of 'Home' sink in as a permanent state?
No, not yet.
So, my task at hand is to practice this focus again, with the feeling of being secure in my new home - and take it into my heart.
Using the feeling of ‘All is well” and “Everything is handled” that I felt out in the stars all those years ago.
For me the more expansive concept is that that life, for some of us, takes the old things, relationships, patterns or habits away first, so we can fill up with new, fresh energy patterns that create higher level experiences in our futures.
This makes sense to me now, and fills me with hope!
I have an idea to present to you next time, as a way for us to practice releasing our old stories we were taught about what we can’t have in life.
And turn them around into what we CAN have.
Stay tuned for my next blog post.
And, as always, wishing you peace, Judy
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PPS: Our new home will definitely have an expansive night sky above... :)